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There are 4 types of people that are aware of this situation.
1. The people that sees this all over their twitter/instagram but is still clueless.
2. The people that knows everything but is neutral about this.
3. The people that are defending Kris (people that believe OT12).
4. The people that are against Kris (people that believe OT11).

First and foremost, read this if you're still unsure what the situation is about. 
It's about a member from the kpop band EXO filing a lawsuit against the company, SM Entertainment.
To be honest saying all of us (the fans) are still unsure about the situation now. We were not given any true statement from either sides and I doubt we will ever know the truth behind this.
It's your choice to believe and side which ever side or maybe just stay neutral.
The whole fandom now is just in a mess. Starting from Kris filing a lawsuit a week before their solo concert, to people spreading fake rumors like the boys phone was controlled by SME and now sock accounts on weibo and baidu spreading really dumb things about the 11 boys on search engine.

My thoughts about this is that firstly I was on Kris's side. I read the sina article that speculated and I thought that maybe Kris had his reasons to leave or maybe adjust his contract with the company. Then I slowly turned neutral about this since the situation died down a little on the second day while we all wait nervously for a statement from either side but nothing came. 
Soon on the third day the whole fandom is in a really big mess. Fans start taking sides, people are blaming Kris, people defending Kris. On my time-line in twitter this was what I saw and it really hurts a lot to know that we're fighting over this. It opens my eyes to see that when such situation arises, all types of people arises too. 

And now I'm just against Kris. Please don't get me wrong as into saying that I hate him to the core and wished he was never in EXO no I don't mean that way. I feel a sense of betrayal from Kris. It's just that Kris's way and reason of leaving the band caused a lot of  emotional and physically harm to the 11 other boys that are still in EXO. It's exactly 1 week before the concert that he filed the lawsuit and I am pretty sure he thought about this with himself (and supposedly his new company) for a really long time without consulting the other 11 members. A lawsuit doesn't just happen like oh Kris woke up and suddenly felt unfair so he went to file a lawsuit against the company. It's a week before the concert and such things arises. Doesn't anyone get how much the boys have worked so long to perfect and ace their OWN first solo concert? Definitely the boys feel betrayed even Tao said it out evidently in Instagram and Weibo but nobody believed him. Now that with a possibly high chance Kris isn't returning like who would file a lawsuit against the company then come back again and act as if nothing happen. The boys have to redo all of their dances and possibly re-film their VCR for the concert. Things that they planned and did for the past few months or maybe a year now they need to redo it in a week. In a fucking week. The people that should feel the most exhausted is the 11 members themselves.

My thoughts is that Kris could have or should have consulted the members and speak them about his difficulties. If Kris is facing difficulties don't tell me the other 11 boys aren't? Jongin and Yixing is constantly having waist injuries but they still carry on as usual cos it's their dream to dance. And I'm pretty sure the other boys felt as tired as Kris did. They all had the same schedule even when it splits into EXO-K and EXO-M. If you have a dream, you work towards that dream. All 12 of them had the same dream, to dance and sing on a stage, to be an idol. Obviously they would complain here and there but none of them had gone to the extend to file a lawsuit, everyone but Kris. My first thoughts were really really really wondering why he didn't consult the other 11 members. You have 11 other listening ear for you, 11 other heads for you to give you advice. You didn't consult them. What happened to "We Are One". It has turned into "Are We One?" because of you. Even if Kris comes back they would have trust issues with one another. It's just like you and your bestfriend agreed to do something together, that both of you dreamed for your whole life to do it together and suddenly the day before you're gonna do it, your bestfriend bails out on you without even telling you the reason why. Maybe both of you could work things out but no your bestfriend refuses to pick up all your constant calls and pleas. 
It was just so irresponsible for him to back out last minute, their most crucial time period in their career. All I can say it's a really evil scheme from him and his company. If he at least had 1% thought about the other 11 boys that are working their ass off too, he wouldn't have filed the lawsuit or maybe not a week before their concert. 

But it's just that some people are hating Kris to an extend that it's really unbearable for me. Blaming him on every single thing like he paid the sock accounts to spread rumors about the other 11 members? I don't know Kris, he may do this sick act he may not nobody knows unless you have solid evidence of him using his bank account to pay people to do this. Let's take it that each member has 1000 fans. Now with Kris gone, that 1000 Kris fans are feeling lost. Their idol is on a high chance of leaving the band and pursuing a solo career. But the other 11,000 fans still feel safe and glad their idol didn't file a lawsuit. Will the 11,000 other fans feel the same as the 1000 Kris fans? No. Nobody knows how much that 1000 Kris fans are feeling right now cos it's not their idol that left. And now with the 11,000 fans that are blaming Kris for leaving, the 1000 fans are defending him in all ways they could. But now it has turned into a war with 11,000 fans vs the 1000 fans.

Now from my views on my timeline on twitter people are OT11 > OT12/Kris's side. Kris face seems so foreign to me. But every time I see a picture of 12 of them together or shows about them, my heart squeezes a little to know that he betrayed and bailed on them. Everything would not be the same ever again. Nobody predicted this day would come. Everything is just happening too fast for the boys. I wished they make to fame slowly and not in a sudden but it's not their choice since it's SME that we are talking about. When EXO is the company's source of income definitely they would drive EXO to the extend of back to back promotions, hours of practices to perfect everything, countless of endorsement and their own solo concert in 2 years after they debut. 
Now I just feel really confuse and I want the truth, the reason why. I bet everyone does want to know but we can never know the dark truth behind this. 

Kpop to people may seem normal. Take my friends from school for an example. They know what's kpop is, they know hallyu wave but to them it's just normal people. Sure I bet some of them listen to kpop to and some of them despise kpop a lot. But to them it's just normal people singing. They listen for the fun of listening, they don't buy tickets to their concert or even buy their album. When my friends take a peek at my wallpaper, they would ask me who's that and all I can say it's someone. It's someone that's important to me. I'm not those delusional fans that declare the person to be my boyfriend lol no.
To me kpop is part of my life. I started liking kpop since 2010. That's when I started to go for events and concerts. Like every month I would see a kpop idol. Kpop Night concert 2010 was my first concert and it was definitely an eye opener for me. Through the years of attending events, I learned a lot. From queuing overnight to finding the best time to buy a ticket. Last time I would lie to my parents by saying I would go to my friend's house to overnight or my friends had a birthday party that ended at 11+ nearly midnight. But now I would just tell them that I would come home late and if they were on their way maybe they could fetch me home. They cared lesser as time passes I guess. 
Over the years I restricted my self a lot. From liking over 10 bands to now chasing only 1 band. Literally everyone asked how was my Korea trip when I went Korea in December last year. All I could say was fun and tiring. Isn't obvious that there was only one sole purpose that I went there for? We would leave the guesthouse at 7pm, queue in the cold of lowest -11 degrees for the whole night without a wink of sleep, then attend pre-recordings at 8am in the morning, then going back home around in the afternoon to sleep then go out again in the evening. Let's say it was really really really tiring. No matter how much I slept I still feel tired. There was nothing I could boost about Korea. All I did was to chase idols and maybe went to a few tourist places like Everland and N Seoul Tower.

Having an idol makes you tired physically and mentally. Once you start you can't stop. 
But I guess it's my time to stop. I'm done with everything. All the bullshits I see online, all the hate that my idol gets, trying to defend them by all means every single time. I am really done. I'm not leaving EXO when they are at their lowest but I'm leaving cos I've been through enough shits from all these years. I am not leaving them because I lost interest/love for them is gone. Please don't doubt my love for them cos it'll forever be 100% from my heart. Let's just say I'll be on rest mode (like what they always say). I'll still be supporting the boys be it 11 or 12 or maybe just Do Kyungsoo himself in his acting career. Thank you for all the memories and the people I met along the way. I'll be back when it feels right again.
 


 
On a side note: A few days ago I watched Amazing Spiderman 2 and it was really amazing. Dane Dehaan aka Harry Osborn is just so wow (everyone should go watch In Treatment Jesse). I just like the way he talks and all. He's just perfect and his wife Anna Wood is perfect too and together they are perfection T_T. Liking an actor that lives on the other side of the world is so much less painful and tiring than liking an idol that is 6 hours by flight away.

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