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My Scouting life
12 April, 2014
12 April, 2014
But to us scouters, every week we meet to plan the meeting, then carry out the meeting. During the meetings there are stuffs that happen. Both memorable and unpleasant memories.
Every year we would attend annual camp, events like campfires and gangshows, competitions, troop outings. Without fail we would have to do Job Week during March holidays and Donation Draw during June holidays. Strangers that became friends that I met along the way, whether it's through gangshow or campfire or camps, it was nice knowing you guys for that short period of time.
From sec 1 when I came in, we had our job week then chalet, Malaysia trip, annual camp and donation draw in June, Hong Kong trip in December. The most fun and memorable memories was when I was in sec 1 and all these happened. There are definitely some unpleasant ones but when we talk back about all these all we do is laugh and remember those times cos it's over and it'll never be the same as before. The people that are there, are all gone now.
Then came sec 2. When we had our APL ranks. It gave us a bit of responsibility, to help out our PL.
After that was sec 3 when we had our PL, ATL, TL ranks. I was grateful to be the ATL of Cougar Scout troop and PL of Patrol Tiger from 2013-2014. There were a lot of memories made during this timing. There were definitely quite a number of fights between us PLC but it's always resolved over talking and someone coming up with a stupid joke (I'm referring to yan an about this). I can't explain how much I really love the PLC; Chichi, Leowhong, Antasha, Terrence, Soepaing, Yanan. We walked through this journey together and it saddens me a lot that our journey ended today. The day we became PL/ATL/TL, the first words we said was "I can't wait to step down". But coming towards promotion day for the past few months, suddenly our scouting spirit was soaring high up. Memories from overnight hike then promotion day the next day, becoming facilitators for Jurong District PLTC, patrol leaders for annual camp and last but not least, National Patrol Camp that drained all our energy but I have to honestly say it is really the most memorable camp I have ever attended. The 5D4N we spent together was just so memorable I don't know how to describe it and put it in words.
Nobody knows how much scouts mean to me. Scouts changed my whole character and personality (probably my life too but can't be so sure about that). I can honestly say if it wasn't for the friends I made through scouting, I wouldn't be the person I am today. I would be much more worse. I used to have really bad moodswing and I thought everyone should follow my way of thinking. It was the close friends I had in scouts that made me change character and my whole perspective on things. It's where I begin to open up to thinking the possibilities of certain things and loosen up. It means so much to me that I'd rather be a scout now and lead the troop with the same PLC members but I know it's impossible. There are some things that we can keep and that's the memories we had and the friendship. But there are some things that we must let go and that is we can no longer go back to the way things was. Sometimes when the time have come, it's time for us to let go of certain things that we can't keep hold on forever.
Although all of us joined ventures but it feels so different. We can no longer meet up to plan for meetings, then carry out the duties during the meeting. All we can do is to stand aside and guide the current PLC. We will still create memories through a few events but it's not enough. Eventually we will start to lose interest in scouting and we'll split our own ways. That day will come and I'm just hoping my heart is ready to let the friendship go. I'm those type of person that treasure friendship that I think are worth keeping. I'm sorry for being so emotional and ((((cried))) during promotion day. Cos I know that things can never be the same even how much I wish it would.
I remember during 2011 Malaysia Trip, we had water rafting, water abselling and caving. Those 3 were the most memorable activity. I wouldn't dare to do all these but at that time I had that YOLO mindset that if I didn't do it then I wouldn't do it ever again.
Hong Kong trip we went for an exchange program with the hong kong scouts. Then the last day we went to Ocean Park. I'll definitely go back there again but it'll feel super different.
I'll definitely miss the times when after every meeting, whether be it Friday or Saturday meetings, we would go out to eat lunch/dinner and just chit chat.
I'll definitely miss leading patrol Tiger, nagging and scolding them, having the power to do anything.
Being the PL of Patrol Tiger actually gave me quite a few unpleasant memories. Every week I would have to message and chase people to come CCA. I can't help it but to treat you guys as my kids. I just have that motherly personality when I take care a bunch of people younger than me. This year when the new sec 1s came in my patrol suddenly expanded to 12 people, the largest in the whole troop. Although it wasn't easy to manage them but I'm glad they listen well. Except for one that tested my patience for 4 months and I finally exploded today. If any of you are reading this, really thank you for the farewell card. I treasure these kind of stuffs so it means alot to me.
Every time I look at promotion day pictures, my heart squeeze a little cos I dread that day to come but it finally came. It's unbelievable. Every time I see the pictures and think of the memories we had, my eyes get teary. From now onwards we won't ever be wearing that uniform but a quite similar uniform just that it's plain and different in colour of a few parts.
If any of you guys are reading this (Chichi, Leowhong, Antasha, Terrence, Soepaing, Yanan, Weixian, Royan, Liwen, Jiarui) just so you all know that I treasure the memories we had and our friendship. Eventually we may go our own way (too early to say this but still), please always always always keep in contact. You guys are a bunch of friends I don't ever want to lose contact with. With all the memories we had, it's hard for me to ever forget you guys. Pictures leave the most memories. Pictures are memories that last a lifetime.
Lastly, I'm gonna sign off by saying Thank You, for the memories we had together.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
